Then the nurse handed me a sheet of paper talking about why my hemoglobin might be so low (it basically told me I needed to eat better - Ramen Noodles do not give me the Iron I need) so that I could be prepared for next time. Now I know that I need to eat green leafy veggies, eggs and more meat. I am prepared for next time.
I wish life was that easy. I wish I could just eat some Popeye spinach and feel strong enough to face the world and fight off the bad guys. But I get tired. Sometimes everything hurts and I just want to stay in bed all. day. long. And it isn't an easy choice to get out of bed in the mornings. It's never easy to do something you don't want to do - even if it might save someone's life.
Paul actually wrote a letter to the Galatians back in the day about this exact matter. He said: Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.
I think they must have been getting tired too. And probably not because of an iron deficiency (though that may have been a component...) but because it wears you out to be good all the time. Because being good isn't just about giving a little blood - it is about giving everything you have. And it is tiring and painful and sometimes it breaks your heart. But it is worth it. Or at least, it will be.
That's what we're told anyway. And sweet Jesus I am trusting you to be faithful to that. Because I cannot do this whole "life" thing by myself. But what I can do is prepare myself for what is to come. I will eat my vegetables and poultry and hope that one day I am ready to save someone's life. If only I do not give up.
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Love,
Jessi
I comment on another blog and sometimes click on the "next blog" tab and see what turns up. Sometimes I comment on that blog. (Aren't we the lucky one ... J/K!)
ReplyDeleteIf you like C.S. you might like the person he called his master. The name ... George MacDonald. He also writes fantasy and his time period might be a little bit earlier than C.S. (You can access some of his writings on Arthur's Classic Novels website for free. "Back at the North Wind" is cool. (Interesting note; C.S. and J.R. Tolkein met frequently at Cambridge University to chat and compare works in progress. J.R. told C.S. to drop the Chronicles because it was no good.)
I believe that we are entering spiritual Renaissance period where it will be critical for "do-gooders" to step forward and do good. Kind of like when the waters were being troubled by the angel and the man was healed. I believe with all my heart we can do this thing. (Have you ever heard of Kiva? Check it out. They are doing great things for those who want to get out of poverty and that in third world countries and you can participate if you feel the call.) Albert Einstein said that the world is a dangerous place to live. Not because of bad people ... but because of good people who are willing to do nothing about it. That is the absolute truth.
I could ramble at length but will stop. I wish you all the best in all that you dream and pursue and I will leave you with a quote by Oswald Chambers.
"Beware of harking back to what you once were when God wants you to be something that you have never been"
David
Oh, it is SO EASY to get tired. I ask the Lord for spiritual refreshment and re-energizing on a DAILY basis. Without it, I'm exceptionally useless.
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