12.07.2005

starting over

So I went up to Auburn this past weekend and realized with some frustration that things are very different. Familiar people have gone, new people have come - I'm going to have to start over in a lot of respects. I'm excited to make new friends and share my life with new people, but its kind of a scary thing. I've never been very good with change. And I certainly wasn't used to being the new kid in Auburn - I mean its been 3 1/2 years since I first went up there, and I was supposed to feel like like the new kid then, but now that I'm returning I'm not supposed to be the new kid - I'm supposed to be the good friend who's finally come back from vacation. But I almost felt like a visitor or a guest. Of course, I'm sure that will change. It was just weird.

On top of everything I did a very Jessi thing and went to the Christmas banquet in a formal gown, gloves, and a tiara, but the problem was that only about 5 people realized it was a very Jessi thing. To everyone else I was just a bit overdressed. Alas.












However, I am very excited about moving in with Allison. Her place is amazing - and of course she is amazing and fun and I think we are going to have a spectacular time living together. Plus, I think it will help me to get to know all of the people I don't really know yet. I'm definitely glad I'm not living by myself like I had originally planned. This semester is gonna be good - different, but good.

Although I really wish Calla Maria was still here. It most surely will not be the same without her. She has always been at my side in Auburn. First she lived next door, then we lived together for 2 years. Who will I play in the rain with? Who will I have cake fights with? Who will I steal traffic barrels with? (for the record, stealing is bad) Who will enjoy whoa with me at Chili's? Who will I take bubble baths with (with a swim suit on)? Who will let me sit in her lap on the scholarship couch while eating Java chip ice cream and watching Dawson's Creek? It certainly will not be the same.

7 comments:

  1. You are the much missed returning friend Jessi! And I'll play in the rain and have cakefights with you....I don't know about that bubblebath stuff though, and I've already had my lapse into theivery and don't want to repeat it, so no barrel stealing. Hehe. And the tiarra and gown was awesome. :)

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  2. Jessi, I'll never be your Calla Maria, but please, let's take bubble baths and play in the rain and all those wonderful things. I's so excited that I get to come back and be around all the people I love most! Thank you AU for not letting me graduate!! haha. I get on a plane in 18 hours, but I will leave the room I've called home tomorrow morning before work and stay with someone tomorrow night. I'm packing right now! See you Monday or Tuesday!! Love, Amy

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  3. Hey, now, girls, I think that of all people left in Auburn, as CM's other half I am most qualified to fill in for her duties while she is away. So you'll be playing in the rain with ME, JessiWessi. :) But I don't think the bubble bath would go over well, swimsuits or no.

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  4. I'll let you sit with me and eat java chip ice cream and watch dawson's creek. we've got to have that day.

    AND we can listen to hanson together. How many people will do that???

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  5. Umm...yeah. I would surely appreciate it if you two would refrain from that bubble bath. He he...a mental image i could live without. Don't replace me just yet, my jessi...we still have great play ahead of us.

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  6. wow people fighting over you. Nothing could kill that joy(trust me I tried to think of something). Anyway I've been here all this time and still didn't know most of the new people.

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  7. I can try to sub for Calla Maria, but I don't have long enough hair. Sorry. But I'm looking forward to re-sharing our lives next semester! I'm really glad you'll be back, and so are the other 5 people you knew last year who are still in Auburn. Come over often, okay Dear?

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